Sunday, November 25, 2007

Flash Gordon

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My father (for all his sins) has always let me be myself. As I've grown up I've come to realise this is a rare gift. Most (but by no means all!!) parents seem to behave like shoehorns. Lovingly, usually, but a shoehorn is a shoehorn. A lifetime of being made to fit into the right shoe.
Not me, by either parent.
Fly away little bird and see where she lands.
"OK" I said and off I flew.
...And when I was chucked out homeless onto the streets of Bristol, where was he?
Why on his way to collect me in a big van to house my many things strewn across the pavement.
...And when I lost my first baby and my mother was dead, where was he?
Living alone in a house that he invited me into till my wings were mended and I could fly off again.
I like to imagine he lets me fly off and sits back with a nice hot cup of coffee watching curiously to see where I land.
...And now I've landed, settled, nested. Where is he?
Well, busy usually. Drinking coffee on the run (actually he likes green tea). I'd like more everydayness, visits , calls, more hello's.
I, too, must learn the lesson he gave me and let him be himself.
I imagine in a crisis he'd turn up in a flash.

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